I have never been so excited or so scared.
Brady is so excited to start school, make friends, and, to quote Brady; "learn about stuff". He has been counting down the days on his calender for months. I just can't help but be a little nervous (ok, scared). Due to his Sensory Processing Disorder he gets very frustrated very easily. I fear for him for several reasons. Other kids have trouble understanding him because his speech is not where it should be. When other kids don't understand him and he keeps repeating himself, he walks away and just shuts down. When he gets frustrated he doesn't know how to "deal" and typically shows this with anger and if he isn't left alone to "vent" it only escalates. I just want my boy to be able to function as a normal kid, although he may never be "normal". He is such a loving and caring child and would never do anything to hurt anybody, but when he hits his boiling point, you never know what will happen. Brady knows about his situation, but how do you explain it to your 5yr old? He goes to his therapies twice a week, every week, and also has Speech and Occupational Therapes while at school. He loves going because he knows "it makes me feel better daddy" and "somethings stuff just isn't right up here" (while holding this forehead between his hands). It tears my heart out to year my son say something like that. The fact, at 5yrs old, he knows his head isn't right. I just want to fix it, I am his dad and I am supposed to make everything ok....
I hope I am being overly cautious and I am sure he will be fine, but today is day 1 of 4745 days in his educational lifetime. I can't wait for him to get off the bus and hear about his day, I just hope it is everything he expects and not what I suspect..
